Confucious say:

He who stays up until 7:30AM reading deserves to feel like dung spot on bottom of elephant's foot.

It's been a while...

...so I thought I'd post something!

The job search is going better. I've got a solid lead on a position with a tech company that interests me greatly, and I think its moved from the possible to the probable. I'll know more next week after the holiday.

Other than that, just doing a lot of reading, fishing, crossword puzzles and barbequing. All in all, life is pretty good!

Just one more option to consider......

It has always kinda bothered me that I never finished college. I'm a two-time dropout -- once because of immaturity; the second time because of family responsibilities. I think I've grown up now, and being single again eliminates the family problems. And since I'm not working -- well -- I'm thinking about going back.

I went to talk to an advisor at the college yesterday, and was surprised to learn that I'm in better shape than I expected. After all the dust settles, it seems like I may need only about 15 hours. That's one semester full-time. The biggest problem has always been that I need specific classes which are only offered occasionally. But I spent the morning going through class schedules, and every course I need is offered this fall. Hmmm---maybe an omen??

On top of that, I am scheduled to receive an inheritance from my late father in early June, and it will be enough to live on for a year - without working. Another omen??

The biggest drawback is age. It's hard enough looking for a job in your late forties. Will passing the magic half-century mark make it even harder? But at the same time, it would be nice to be able to check that "bachelor's degree" box on the applications. It doesn't seem to matter that I already have more college hours than most graduates. It's either "degree" or nothing!

Sooooooo....as if I didn't have enough to think about, now I've got another option to consider.

(Ironically, they want me to repeat "public speaking"....as if 20 years on the radio doesn't qualify. Sheesh!!!!)

Who'da thunk it!?

Wow -- amazing discovery. Job hunting and clinical depression do NOT make a happy couple. One day I'm up and the next, the black cloud descends and all I want to do is crawl into bed, pull the covers over my face, and hide from the world. This crazy weather isn't helping either -- sunny and warm one day, cold and dreary the next.

The stress of the past few years is finally draining away. I've been fishing a couple of times (on the sunny, warm good days) and actually enjoyed myself! Enjoy -- not a word I've been that familiar with for a long time! Also got some work done in the yard - although there is still WAY too much left to do before the place looks like someone actually lives here.
Oh yeah -- and looked for work. Lots of possibilities, but nothing specific yet.

At my age, I figure that whatever I do next is pretty much what I'll do for the rest of my working life. And it's just not easy figuring out what you want that to be. I'm not one that has ever had some great burning desire to be this or that. So now here I am trying to figure out what I want to do with the rest of my life. Hell, I didn't even plan what I did with the FIRST part of my life. What do I know about the REST of it????

Oh well -- at least I'm not starving. Yet.

Decompression 101

I never thought I'd have to learn how to relax! But slowly, the built-up tension and anxiety of the past few weeks (months) (years) is starting to fade just a little bit. I no longer think of work every minute -- I'm down to about every third or fourth minute. And I'm getting used to not worrying about whether I have cell-coverage or whether I have my home phone tied up for too long.

Fortunately, I don't have to go into panic mode about finding a new job. I'm taking this week OFF completely, with the exception of a few resumes I emailed to employers who aren't gonna take the time to even look at it. But other than that -- I'm just trying to catch up on my life.

I never enjoyed mowing my lawn as much as I did this week. And yesterday, I actually took a chair out into the shade under a tree and read a book. The sky was clear, the breeze was cool, and the birds were singing. And it was WONDERFUL

Today, I might crank up the BBQ. Or maybe I'll go fishing. Or maybe I'll just do NOTHING!

Life is good.

FREE!

I'm FREE! Gone. Kaputski. I QUIT!

And it felt WONDERFUL!!!

Against my better judgement, I agreed to stay and work for the new owners. I knew they'd blow up the FM -- change the format and generally screw with things. That's what new owners do. And I was prepared for that, as much as I didn't like it.

But ya don't screw with KDRO on MY WATCH! We've spent 65+ years building up a level of trust with the community. Strong news coverage, community service, and being a reliable, steady source of entertainment and information. And this guy wants to automate the AM from 6PM to 6AM -- just as we head into the meat of the severe weather season! I DON'T THINK SO!

The people of this community deserve better than to turn on their radios when the warning sirens sound and hearing nothing but the computerized voice of the EAS system. I'm sorry, but I could not and would not be party to that!

I think the priorities are wrong when you want to run two radio stations with four people handling ALL the on-air work, while FIFTEEN sales people run around trying to convince already strapped businesses that they should increase their ad buys by 500% or more. I don't know what fantasy world these new guys live in, but Sedalia is about to give then a reality check like they've never had before.

And I won't be part of it. I just couldn't help tear down what so many people have spent so many years building.

May KDRO rest in peace.